@feliciasneck sorry but this manga is the explanation. In her agony is her desires, as well as the proof of her love, shown rather than simply said. Heard as a pure exclamation that can't be disguised nor distorted such as with words and their constricting definitions.
"I realized I had found the one" but only when it comes to shibari and bdsm, no underlying feelings at all, no desire to spend more time around Each other whatsoever. Ffs
I get that the author is trying to say that bdsm doesn't have to only be done with an SO. That you can be dom and sub without...