Please hurry up to clear misunderstand. If he doesn't have you, he definitely go berserk long time ago. From what I see, he using his power because he have no other choice than using it. His live always in danger, so he definitely died long time ago if not using it.
I know that you inferiority complex is almost impossible to cure, but please trust him a little. While you can't ask directly, you can ask him indirectly or roundabout way.
Oh no... are they skipped MC childhood story? I mean in novel there early chapters about MC childhood until she finally going to school. I very disappointed if this is the case.
SHIT THIS MAKE ME HATE MC EVEN SHE SO PITIFUL. RUN AWAY GIRL, HOW THE HELL YOU FALL WITH THAT KIND TRASH GUY. AFFRAIR WITH HIS WIFE LITTLE SISTER? WHAT SHITTY GUY. GO RUNNING AWAY FROM THAT COUNTRY, SAVE MONEY, LEARN SOME THING FOR INDEPENDENT LIFE. THEY DIDN'T DESERVE YOUR ATTENTION BOTH YOUR...