i read the author's afterword a bunch of times. i thought it was quite well explained (translation-wise, i mean, in that i feel like i understand what the author's trying to say). and plus it made me think about something i hadn't ever considered. to be honest, when i saw eros, i just thought about anne carson... anyway, what i wanted to say is that, even though it's true, i also feel it's quite romantic to dedicate that 'living energy' to that 'wanting to die' energy, overall the afterword made me feel even sadder. this is like quietly tragic, but quite beautiful