@DaoFox
Sounds like body dysmorphia. I deal with that. I literally don’t know what I look like, because so often all I see is the stuff I hate.
Then I ask my wife what looks good on me and she says “everything looks cute on you!” and I’m like “that’s not helpful!”
@Harusame While it's true that disliking your appearance / voice in pictures / recordings isn't exclusive to trans people, it's much more common than in the global population. That, and the protagonist continuing to willingly cross-dress, is what makes me give him the side-eye.
@Thrembs I don't even have a mirror at home. Went a couple years genuinely not knowing what I looked like because it wasn't necessary and I could get by just fine.
Will try to deal with it eventually I think, but just don't have the time and energy right now.