I was shocked by how much I remembered the conversations, the dialogue (albeit with different wording) the stories of characters that I didn't seem to care about. And as I reread, I didn't feel depressed at all. I felt happy. Yes there are elements that are sad like Honda's entire arc which is admittedly the weakest part of the story for me and the whole nature of the struggles and what not, but I felt happiness more than anything. Seeing the characters who were at the cusp of life have to deal with imminent death and deal with that universal horror in strong ways was just wonderful. Seeing characters like Kirie find reasons to fight, seeing Komoda and Tokosumi make up with their fathers, Mako learn that her parents always loved her like their own flesh and blood, and all of them accomplishing those things before their encounters with death. Well that was all just beautiful. Even Jun's face as he experiences the hell of battle was a testament to how much he changed as a person, as was his decision to even enter the contract and Koyemeshi is the one whose development is the starkest of all. I've heard it been called a heavy handed edgefest that slaughters kids for contrived reasons and I won't hold it against you if that's what you think of it, but I love this manga. I really do. I would be more than thrilled if someone did the extra chapters included in the deluxe edition.