the worst part of this is that the older you get the more things start to leave you. it hurts so much to lose it even if you can re-read it again. I still mourn for shows and manga that have ended. Growing up and see everything leave you behind is painful but is part of growing sadly. You think it will be there until the end but it doesn't. it's like when we mourn people that have passed away, what hurts more than them leaving is the fact that you saw yourself with them till the end. Selfish really.