Shit, man, I didn't actually expect something like that.
Idk for sure what all your thoughts on the matter are, but just know we're here for you brother. My advice is forget about falling in love, no matter how difficult it may be, and focus on you, and only you. We can tell you're a decent person (we as in the 4 people that operate this bigtiddyoneesan account), so we know that you've got what it takes to get to where you wanna be. And if it helps, just know that, if a relationship doesn't work out even after you've given it your all, then that's the way it's supposed to be. You'll find that feeling again bro, I promise.