I am familiar with that kind of self-loathing, and it is very unpleasant. When you start believing you're beyond redemption and you ruin everything you touch it would be wise to reach out to someone.
As someone who gets a nervous breakdown every time I see blood...it's a great thing I was not born as a girl, or else I might have fainted in the toilet. lol
@ChristineGuinn I mean, I'm pretty sure Akira considered themselves at least partly a guy, since they were kinda happy they got to act like a boy again. Not to mention I figure they must have or else having a period, something very much a female train and very much not a male trait, effected them some badly. Which then started a flood of emotions of things that happened since then and before, with a nice unhealthy dose of self loathing.
Still, I'm liking this series. Like, I enjoy Onii-chan is done for, for the fluff. But this one seems to touch on the consequences of if there was actually such a thing as a sudden genderswap among humans.
@Skyknight2003 - I may be wrong on this, since we haven't seen where this is going yet, and what the mangaka's intentions are, but it SEEMS to me just from the title and story so far that this is about him/her accepting themselves and becoming a better person, and the shock of changing genders is the catalyst for that. I mean, it's essentially "divine retribution" for a boy who was cruel to girls to BECOME a girl. Who knows, maybe he learns his lesson and changes back later on, but it seems more likely that SHE learns HER lesson, and remains a girl in the end. Like I said, we'll eventually find out what the author has in mind.