What do you mean "its not your fault" it was their idea to bring you back and had you "interogated", I hate how Japanese authors try to write edgy mc's butjust cant get it right, they are either too edgy, or retarded like this.
The only novel/manga that has written a good mc i've read so far is Shield Hero and Eminence in Shadow.
I wish the mc stuck with his gut feeling and didnt save her