I have felt the same way many times. I have heard so many stories from people I know very well that they couldn't hear his voice at first. I know it's very, very, very frustrating at times but you cannot cannot give up. I am always praying for you if you didn't know.
I always pray for the most important people in my life. Now is the time to pray harder and tell God that you are having trouble with faith. Trust me that he will listen and be there. God gives us our answers in many ways. Not just talking back. You just have to have persistence with him, I really don't want you to give up on him.
I know that I seem like one of the most catholic and holy people you know, but I have trouble too. A lot of trouble sometimes and it makes me so mad when bad things happen or I don't feel a connection. I found what helps me is prayer through writing in a journal. I try to write a prayer in a journal every night and just talk. Talk to him about anything that's going on, good and bad. Trust me it works sooooo well.
It would break my heart and God's heart to see you give up on faith, Richman. Sometimes even praying to Mary can be just as effective. Ask her for her intercession to help you not give up on God. Pray to your favorite saint. St. Therese actually is a great one because she feel in love with the Lord at such a young age, 15, so praying to her will help.
Richman, if you ever need to talk about more I'm here. I encourage you to maybe go with my to my youth group this year because it's very effective. I encourage you to even say I love you God at random times because that's a prayer. I also love listening to 4 songs that give me a spring in my step and make me believe.
Lay me down by Passion
Forever reign by Hillsong
Wide as the sky by Matt redman
The lost are found by Hillsong
I love you so much and SO DOES GOD. Do not give up.
