milk·y
/ˈmilkē/
adjective
1.
containing or mixed with a large amount of milk.
"a cup of sweet milky coffee"
(of a cow) producing a lot of milk.
2.
resembling milk in color.
"not a blemish marred her milky skin"
(of something that is usually clear) cloudy.
"the old man's milky, uncomprehending eyes"
3.
INFORMAL•DATED
weak and compliant.
"they just talk that way to make you turn milky"
This reminds me a bit of that web comic...Abandoned Empress. I think the MC in that said something similar at the beginning "I will no longer wish to be loved"