I will say that reading through made me cheer for her because she does genuinely love him (does he love her? maybe? it might be more of a cherish sort of thing), and he's a really good pillar of support for her (basically one of the only people she lets herself rely on, and even still she doesnt do it all the time) but the prologue of the novel is literally her getting ntr'd by the "saintess" so ???!?!??!?